add some Marianess into ur lives..

there are so many things bothering me right now. but on some issues, i really have no idea how to share it with my friends. i need my mother at this time..

my mom.

i really enjoyed my break last semester. i did a lot of things normal couples don’t do. i think my bf and i have surpassed the phase of dating in malls and walking aimlessly around, clinging on each other’s arms and reached into the phase where we just want to have different experiences together, hence Skytrex, sight-seeing, etc. so when all these were happening, i was actually spending most of my time away from home, away from my family.

my family is practically boring. my brothers are not like me at all. when i love rollercoasters, my brothers hate them. i like sight-seeing, my brothers prefer watching sceneries on tv. so basically it’s all ping and pong at home. my mother.. well, she used to be like how i am. dats why at home, i am her only companion. whether in shopping, or talking, im the only one she can talk with. my dad is always with his ‘chief’, which to my opinion is a father-stealer. so with me away in perak, my brothers either locked up in their rooms or out performing shows, she is, i know, very lonely.

me, being the only girl in the family, realise dat it’ll be me forcing my brothers to go visit our parents once we’re married and raising our family. itulah hakikatnya. my mom made it clear dat she doesn’t want to live with any of us in the same house in future, but i don’t think i’ll have da heart. i mean come on la. what kind of mother helps their daughter pick out da right outfit to go clubbing? told their children dat she doesnt care if they have to skip a week of class to go on a holiday with the family? slaps u in the face in public? kejar2 u in public just to get even?

my mom.

to be honest, right now i regret not spending my time with her more when i had da chance. i regret not taking her out, treating her like i used to. i miss my mom and i know she misses me. but she will never tell me dat to my face. ego gila. but i frankly don’t mind coz i find dat really cute. i wish i could be there for her. i know she has a lot more to carry than any of us. we’re only students, whereas she is a mother, a role model, a caretaker. whenever im stressed beyond repair, she’ll help me. she’s da reason why i take things lightly. she told me dat she doesn’t care about my results,because she wants me to score to please myself, not her. i have a really cool mother.

i can’t wait to go home and talk to her. i want to be with her. i miss her so badly.  knowing me, it’ll take a few guilt attacks before i learn my lesson.. i just hope this is it. hehe..

to all of yous,

balik la, and give ur mom a big hug and a huge kiss! dont take her for granted. she’ll always be there, true, but one day, she wont. so spend la as much time as possible with her.

i know i’ll get a slap for da huge kiss, but wat do i care?? hehe!

peace.